Why would someone help me get a job where they work & then start acting like a complete tool once I start? Like, if they didn’t want me around they shouldn’t have offered. I’m trying to keep it together & remain as civil as I can, but there is a very heavy sadness descending over me & such deep-seated hurt that a close friend could be so cruel. I’m really struggling here. I’ve cried almost every day this week because of this problem & she won’t talk to me now. I feel unwelcome & it’s clouding my judgement about the entire job. I wake up every morning dreading a place I want to love. I tie my own stomach in knots over the anxiety of facing her. I can’t talk to anyone about it because I don’t want to hurt her chances of getting hired on full-time. I don’t know if I’m asking for advice, or encouragement, or if I’m just trying to be heard on an irrelevant platform. So here’s my anguished spew of angst.